Day of an Aspie
Linda Bunk Linda Bunk

Day of an Aspie

earfully, I share beyond the veneer, beyond the surface, beyond my skin, into my inner most thoughts as an Aspie. Aspie is a club that is invitation only, exclusive but not elite. We tend to meet those on the bottom of the social pecking order. Parents think we try not to fit in, but we can’t fit in.

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Ghost Among Us…
Linda Bunk Linda Bunk

Ghost Among Us…

Generally, people think of disabilities as being characterized by physical attributes, like someone in a wheelchair or with Downs. However, there are many that live with invisible disabilities, ghosts among the fully-abled. One in five have mental illness, few diagnosed and many undiagnosed – suffering in silence, not understanding the war within their minds. Autistic suffer much the same, ghosts walking within society sharing spaces with the unwilling compromise of the neurotypical.

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Engulf
Linda Bunk Linda Bunk

Engulf

Exhilarating world, incendiary to the sterile, stale state of stability. Technicolor movie hues bled into one another. Uncontainable euphoria gripped me. Fearful of an explosion that could pull everyone into my black hole, a rampant tempest of elation. Unstoppable…

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Plunging
Linda Bunk Linda Bunk

Plunging

Many think mania is fun. They are dead wrong. Mania is a dangerous symptom of Bipolar. Statistically, a manic episode presents the greatest risk for suicide. Mania detaches functional reality.

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Swimming
Linda Bunk Linda Bunk

Swimming

The next words will be raw, real, distorted, and disturbing to some. I am not suicidal or experiencing suicidal ideations. I am revealing my shadow self. Most of my life I have had suicidal ideations. They swim in the back of my mind.

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The Decay of the Luxury of Boredom
Linda Bunk Linda Bunk

The Decay of the Luxury of Boredom

We have lost the luxury of boredom, and with it, the indulgence of daydreaming. Daydreaming is essential to creativity, solving problems, and the spark of imagination, but instead, we scroll, scroll, scroll. The device kills boredom, and, in turn, kills creativity - your imagination. Boredom spurs creativity. The end of boredom has introduced a movement towards intellectual laziness, instead of celebrating the brilliance of genius in adroitness. The societal mundane are awarded in all avenues of community, and the magic device aids their advancement.

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80 Summers
Linda Bunk Linda Bunk

80 Summers

Eighty seems like a small number compared to the almost thirty thousand days He may grant us. Only eighty summers to gather with family and friends. Only eighty summers to complain about the humidity and heat…

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Why do We Need Another Awareness Month - Mental Health Awareness?
Linda Bunk Linda Bunk

Why do We Need Another Awareness Month - Mental Health Awareness?

May is Mental Health Awareness month. Awareness involves recognizing the importance of mental health, understanding mental illnesses, and promoting the well-being of individuals and communities. It aims to educate the public, reduce stigma, and encourage people to seek help when needed.

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Rethinking Awareness Days: From Awareness to Belonging
Linda Bunk Linda Bunk

Rethinking Awareness Days: From Awareness to Belonging

I hate Autism Awareness Day. I don’t want to celebrate Autism Awareness or any other awareness day. In recent years, awareness days, weeks, and months have multiplied, each dedicated to a different cause, condition, or group. While the intention behind these observances is noble, aiming to educate and raise understanding, there is a growing sentiment that mere awareness is not enough.

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Trouble and my Little Brother
Linda Bunk Linda Bunk

Trouble and my Little Brother

I grew up a lot with my brother. We were only a year apart in school due to the fact that I was held back twice. We used to play Legos together. We would ride bikes in the neighborhood, building ramps. But I also got in a lot of trouble with him. And a lot of trouble because of him. Well that’s at least how I see it.

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Trouble and my Big Sister
Linda Bunk Linda Bunk

Trouble and my Big Sister

I didn’t get in trouble much at school, which is very surprising since I got picked on a lot, but I never took revenge. I had few friends. I think I was kind of in my own little world. My sister was older.  When I came home from the hospital, I wasn’t the normal baby. I screamed a lot. I slept two hours every twelve hours. My sister wanted my mom to return me for a better baby.

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The Corner
Linda Bunk Linda Bunk

The Corner

I was no stranger to childhood punishment. Trouble seemed to follow me everywhere I went. I thought my punishment was the cruelest, most inhumane and unjust punishment that any child could have. No child was punished the way I was, or at least that’s how I saw it. I was always getting in trouble with the police by my own doing, which I really thought happened because of other people, especially my brother.

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Christmas
Linda Bunk Linda Bunk

Christmas

Christmas was always a special time in our house. I remember the different traditions building up to Christmas Day. My mom would make wreaths to place on the graves of four dead relatives. We would all pack into the station wagon and take them to the cemetery.

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Thankfulness When It Seems God is Silent
Linda Bunk Linda Bunk

Thankfulness When It Seems God is Silent

We pray and pray, but God seems silent. His quietness is deafening while we strive, struggle, suffer. We cry out to Him; however, He is silent. We wonder why He is silent.

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Prayer
Linda Bunk Linda Bunk

Prayer

Prayer has been a weakness for me. My thoughts are always racing, my body is constantly moving. Quietness, like sleep, is a foreign concept to me. During prayer meetings I struggle to stay connected to the group. My hearing loss has added to this problem, because I can't hear the person praying next to me.

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Suffering and Bitterness
Linda Bunk Linda Bunk

Suffering and Bitterness

Jesus said whoever wants to be His disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow Him. (Matthew 16:24-26) Although we will never suffer the way Jesus suffered for us, suffering is hard. Succumbing to bitterness during suffering is difficult to avoid. Suffering is isolating, we feel disconnected to our Lord and Savior, our family and friends, and our church community. Why God? Why?

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